This summer's been fun so far. Caleb has been spending the summer here, and we're working turning him into a dancer every day. It's a blast. It's also made me become a stronger dancer and definitely worked me because I have to think about what I'm doing and how to explain it.
Caleb and I have gone to see some shows too. So far, we saw Sister Act (front row), Catch Me If You Can, and Spiderman: Turn Off The Dark. Honestly, I was and still am floored by all of them for various reasons. Everyone in each show was fantastic. They made me remember why I love theatre so much. It truly is magical.
Caleb's staying here until we go back to school. We're going to Making It on Broadway in August, and I'm stoked. We have another friend from Murray coming to the intensive with us. We're super excited.
I'm also excited that I finished my first draft of New Dawn. It's a musical I've been working on since my freshman year at Murray State. What's more? I talked to the executive director at Playhouse In The Park (the local community theatre), and I'm getting to do a full stage version of it this fall. I'm really excited... nervous, but excited.
However, on a closer term... I leave Saturday to go to Germany for the International Performing Arts Institute. I'll be there for a month... I'm excited. But I get more and more nervous as it gets closer. I've had a bunch of music to learn for it... one of the solos they assigned me is 17 pages long (damn you JRB and your beautiful music). I love it though. As it gets closer, I get more and more anxious, but more and more excited. I'm having a blast just prepping for it. If the actual program is at least a fraction of the fun I've had this summer working up to it, I'll be ecstatic.
While I've had a lot of fun preparing though, I've also struggled. I get frustrated because, vocally, I'm not where I'd like to be. I get frustrated easily because of it too. However, I've found that (this is kinda lame) reading the notes I toke and quotes of people from Making It On Broadway, as well as just random quotes that are just delivered into my lap by God have helped me realize that I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be. If I was supposed to be singing like Aaron Tveit or Michael Arden, I would be. But I'm not. That's not God's plan for me. And as scary or frustrating as it is, I am more than happy with who I am and what I have been given.
So... Before I quit rambling, I have to share this story that happened to me. A few days ago I was INCREDIBLY down on myself about my voice. I went to bed crying and begging to know why I don't have the voices that so many people around me have. I woke up the next morning with a tweet saying that StudentRushNYC is following me on twitter. I go to their page and the first tweet that comes up by them says:
" 'I don't believe you have to be better than everybody else.
I believe you have to be better than you ever thought you
could be.' -Ken Venturi"
I smiled and cried. I then went to fill out my housing application for school next year, and I needed my student number. As I go to pull out my student id, an old fortune cookie fortune feel out of my wallet. I looked at it. It read:
" Your talents will be recognized and rewarded."
It's times like that I know God is watching and there to help at any moment.
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